Prayer and Patience

It is interesting how quickly my mood changes in a day.  Sometimes I am really happy with my life and I feel at peace knowing that Roy is on a mission and that the day will soon come when I will see Him again.  Other times, in a split second, I can  feel so lonely and empty inside that I don't want to do anything but lay in my bed an cry for his presence. I would give anything to be with him right now.  But then I think about my Heavenly Father and my relationship with Him.  Do I long for His presence as much as I long for Roy's? I realize that it's different, but it really isn't so much either.  I have decided that if only I would desire to communicate with my Father in Heaven as much as I long to be with Roy, I would find more peace in my life about Roy and I's separation.  The Lord doesn't answer prayers the way we imagine. It is usually not the convenient way.  Instead of blessing me with Roy at my doorstep, He offers me peace and patience to endure until the day comes that we will be together again.  Plus, as much as I would love it if Roy were here with me, I know that he is where he needs to be.  It's like I wish he were here, but it's not even a possibility, realistically or in my mind!  So I ask the Lord to help me be happy every day with who I am .  As we seek the lord through prayer, not only do we increase our relationship with God, but he truly blesses us in ways unimaginable.  And we begin to find peace in our lives until we can see that light at the end of the tunnel.  Continuous communication with God, enables us to maintain that peace until we finally reach the end of the tunnel and enter into the full sunlight.  Oh, the blessings of enduring with prayer and patience.